Gleek

I often get into things at my own pace.....sometimes before they are cool and sometimes after everyone else has already figured out they are cool. Today I fall into the latter in my admission that I am a GLEEK!

Normally I am one to LOATHE musicals and movies/ shows that break into music through out with the odd exceptions of biographies of musicians, anyway back on track. Last year I caught a few episodes of Glee and thought that seems ok but wasn't overwhelmed by it. This year season two has just started and I am hooked! So over the weekend I rented the second half of season one to catch myself up to date and I am now officially a bonafide Gleek. I just want more and more of it. I think because the songs they sing are ones we all know and love and tell the story of the show....it makes me wish I could sing. But alas I am tone deaf and only sing in the car when alone.

I hope there are other Gleeks out there who love it as much as I do.

P.S. Finn is a dreamboat!

Trust and Friendship.....you gotta have 'em

Until I started my relationship with my boyfriend, I had not 'been in a relationship' for many years. I had dated and gone out with guys but never did it last to the level of being in a relationship and by default in these times requiring a Facebook status change! So I was extremely out of practice at this whole relationship thing, I was used to relying on myself, keeping the barriers up just enough to not get hurt and all that goes along with being single in this day and age.

Over the past nine months I have learned so much, how amazing it actually is to truly share your life with someone, to be in an equal partnership and most of all to infinitely trust someone else with my heart. I'm not saying it has been easy and that there hasn't been some 'hurdles', for a long time I would try keep the 'crazy' thoughts inside and there was a patch there where I was expecting my little dream of a relationship to fall apart because it was just too good.

Here and now I can proclaim, I trust my boyfriend infinitely. I have learned to accept that he just loves me, in the words of Mark Darcy 'just as you are', which to me and my inner monologue (which I can tell you keeps me endlessly entertained with the constant rambling) sometimes just don't get but he does. He is considerate and loving and kind and funny and is really my very best friend in the world. So I have the man I always dreamed about and he is even better than in my dreams.

To have trust and friendship as the base of our relationship I feel blessed. To make it in this world where 1 out of every 2 marriages end in divorce I think that they are the two best characteristics to have on your side and at least when the times are tough you can laugh and talk to your best friend as well as your partner!

First Fight

Looking back on it now, it was just a bit of drama over nothing...well actually it was me penting little things up that then pushed me to momentary craziness, but last week after nearly 8 months my lovely boy and I had our first fight!

Not actually something to be proud of, but every couple has tiffs throughout their lives so it was bound to happen, what I am actually proud of is that it took that long. A few harsh words were said, as quoted from BF 'you got shitty and was mean and I was snippy back' and it was late at night, after a crap nights sleep, a day of running everything through in my head, a nap (so that I could stop being grumpy) we sat down and talked it out, the way it should always be done.

I love him more each and every day we are together and I consider myself extremely lucky to have found my perfect match. When I go into my 'expressive/ expressive' mode (learned this little nugget from personality training we did at work) he stays calm, he is less expressive than myself and I can get frustrated because he doesn't talk as much as I do.....but we are both learning day by day. And the one lesson I have truly learned, all really good relationships are based on love, friendship and compromise......and laughing with your partner everyday. So if you have one as good as mine, you will understand what I am saying and if you don't yet, relax that used to be me, and one day you will find your perfect match too!

Growing A Pair.

Interesting title, I know but basically its what I am in the process of doing. Part of my new job is calling complete strangers with the end goal for them to let me manage their investment property for them. Now some days I can get on that phone and talk till I could talk no more and then there are the days when I put off calling people out of some weird fear and anxiety. I think that it ultimately stems from a fear of rejection but that is a WHOLE different story.

So today was one of those days that I had to call a few prospective clients and I was putting it off and putting it off until I had to sit down make a deal with myself to get it done. Sounds strange but once it was done the relief was immense.....growing a pair is a tough trip and I am glad that I am finally doing things that challenge me, one day soon I will proudly hang my new pair out for all to see and might actually be excited to call a stranger for a chat!

2010.....I am ready for you!

So this is it, the one year I force myself to come through on all of the things I have been promising myself for years, no more excuses, its time for some action. This is of course going to be a long, long trek to get through it all but I think that I am finally ready.

I am sick of being jealous of others that are thinner, healthier and seem to just have everything handed to them on a platter...I have finally accepted I am not one to have things handed on a platter, I have to work and pretty darned hard to get things done so I am gonna.

Blogging is one thing on the list, I started last year and really enjoyed it but didn’t stick to it, this year I will. I need to be organised and disciplined at it and everything I want to achieve which is going to be tough for me but I want to be the me that I am meant to be, no excuses.

Ready or not, here I come world.

Silver Linings

When I woke up today I had that dreading sense that it was going to be 'one of those days' , I was all a bit emotional, had a crap sleep last night and the burden of not knowing what is next was weighing heavily on me. Not expecting much from a day can sometimes have its advantages because then when good things happen instead of just dismissing them they mean more so I just wanted to share a few of the silver linings of my day;

1) Stepping on the scales- YES it is one of the most hated activities my most women that are on the earth and since April 08 I have slowly but surely been losing weight from being far too heavy with a plan to be back to a healthy normal weight before my 30th next year. Anyway, how are you asking was stepping on a set of scales a highlight for me??? Well today, finally I hit a weight that I have not been at since 2005, my jaw nearly hit the floor because I have honestly been a little worried that I would put some weight back on in the 'relationship bliss' so to see that the last couple of kilos that have been toying with me for the last month or so have gone and my enthusiasm and focus is renewed. I will be one hot lady by the time I am 30......oh yeah!

2) Blog Award- A fellow blogger and friend bestowed my first award upon me today and with that shout out hopefully opened this up to some more readers who will read, relate and giggle. There are rules for receiving the award which I will get to but receiving it and the encouragement helped put a smile on my dial today.

3) Sister Love- There are some people in your life that can always put you in a good mood, it was only a quick chat to arrange a lunch date with my sister and my stunning niece Ruby for tomorrow but it all helps.

4) Rock of Love Bus- This I posted as a Facebook status update; Nicola is championing the therapeutic powers of 'Rock of Love Bus'.....stick with me on this one, OK no matter how bad a day/ week/ month you are having your life is not as sad as the bunch of dumb skanky girls fighting each each other to get into Brett Michael's pants. See totally logical. (See attached Picture of some of the 'ladies' from the show)

5) Panadine Extra- For putting a massive dent in my headache from hell despite the 1245 questions I had to answer from the pharmacist to get it.....seriously drug dealers would ask less questions for buying some real stuff!

So that is it.....my crappy day that had some highlights. We can't win them all but there is always a silver lining, you just have to look for it!

My Poor Neglected Blog.....

It has been a while since my last blog post, trust me along the way I have written plenty inside my head but haven't gotten around to actually getting any up. So the latest goings on in my life.......where to begin!

The last blog left off just before I went away with the ex-bf/ best friend (Mr Big) to Phuket for 3 weeks, well in short the holiday couldn't have gone better. We had an absolute ball, never got annoyed with each other and I can speak for me when I say I fell in love with him all over again. This kind of worked out well as now we are officially together (facebook relationship status and all) and I can't even think what I did without him......yes, I am as they say a smitten kitten!

All sounds good so far.......uh-ha but those that know me understand that my life, lets say never runs smoothly. I have had a long term theory that if my work life is good my personal life is crap and vice versa and the last month or so has proved this well and truly true.

Once I got back from the holiday I had a meeting with my boss and she whinged and I advised that I really wasn't happy there so we agreed parting ways would be best for everyone and I thought that would be it. But no, the job that I truly hated (if you were lucky enough to catch the short lived 'I hate my job' blog then you would understand the full extent of my dislike of that employment if not, use your imagination) any way this job well the boss is haunting me and going out of their way to not let me move on. After one false start with a new company because of the said haunting, I am now sitting on my couch at 1:42 pm on a Wednesday unemployed, jaded and totally lost.

I really really would love to leave the industry that I am in, it has been 5 years and I feel it lacks the challenge and interest that it once had. But where to next??? I have not the most useful university qualifications, 5 years experience in property management, a passion and interest in writing and marketing but no idea how to go about making enough money to pay my bills each month with this. So I am looking for temp work to get me by and alt east bring an income in, if that doesn't start soon then the next option is taking another permanent full time PM position and crossing my fingers that the haunting doesn't continue.

So that is it.......pretty much all updated on the main goings on. On one hand I am so immensely happy and cant believe how lucky I have got and the other is a true example of what a total clusterfuck 2009 has been for me career wise. Oh well, at least I can't say that life isn't interesting!!!