Questions and Answers.....

There is a point when you are thinking about something that it then takes over most of your thoughts for a period of time. I started to think on Saturday and I am STILL going, yes I can function as a normal person and most likely the majority of people I have interacted with would have no idea that I am barely paying attention to them because every functioning part of my brain has an 'engaged' sign on it just like a ladies loo.

So what you might ask has been rattling around my brain....one single question that needs to be asked and answered. Now having formulated the question, run it by my very best mate as an editing process (its always better to be safe than sorry) I now need ask the person that I need the answer from.......and the heart starts beating again. As a quick background for those who don't know the latest, about 3 weeks ago my heart rate started racing and wouldn't stop after about 3 days of a 100 plus heartbeat I went to see my GP. She was concerned and then sent me home with some 'old man' beta blockers to artificially slow my heart down and a referral to a Cardiologist. The Cardiologist sent me for a few tests including an ultra sound on my heart and wearing a portable heart monitor that recorded your heart rate for 24 hours and a full blood test. So with my heart rate still hanging around the 100 mark for the most part I went to see the Cardiologist, turns out my heart is overcompensating and working extra hard to make up for a severe iron deficiency........which of course is a great outcome, the iron issues are fixable and he took me off the beta blockers, though until the iron gets sorted I again get an extra fast extra exhausting heart beat.

So back to the point, with the addition of 'stress' my heart rate goes a little insane, not knowing the answer to things also drives me insane the combination together means me preoccupied, stressed and a little nervous. When asking a question that you don't know the answer too there is always a 50/50 chance of it working out the way you want it to. So now all I have to do is get this out of the way and life will make a little more sense, for better or worse an answer is always better than nothing.........