Looking back on it now, it was just a bit of drama over nothing...well actually it was me penting little things up that then pushed me to momentary craziness, but last week after nearly 8 months my lovely boy and I had our first fight!
Not actually something to be proud of, but every couple has tiffs throughout their lives so it was bound to happen, what I am actually proud of is that it took that long. A few harsh words were said, as quoted from BF 'you got shitty and was mean and I was snippy back' and it was late at night, after a crap nights sleep, a day of running everything through in my head, a nap (so that I could stop being grumpy) we sat down and talked it out, the way it should always be done.
I love him more each and every day we are together and I consider myself extremely lucky to have found my perfect match. When I go into my 'expressive/ expressive' mode (learned this little nugget from personality training we did at work) he stays calm, he is less expressive than myself and I can get frustrated because he doesn't talk as much as I do.....but we are both learning day by day. And the one lesson I have truly learned, all really good relationships are based on love, friendship and compromise......and laughing with your partner everyday. So if you have one as good as mine, you will understand what I am saying and if you don't yet, relax that used to be me, and one day you will find your perfect match too!
Showing posts with label Love and Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love and Life. Show all posts
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
My Poor Neglected Blog.....
It has been a while since my last blog post, trust me along the way I have written plenty inside my head but haven't gotten around to actually getting any up. So the latest goings on in my life.......where to begin!
The last blog left off just before I went away with the ex-bf/ best friend (Mr Big) to Phuket for 3 weeks, well in short the holiday couldn't have gone better. We had an absolute ball, never got annoyed with each other and I can speak for me when I say I fell in love with him all over again. This kind of worked out well as now we are officially together (facebook relationship status and all) and I can't even think what I did without him......yes, I am as they say a smitten kitten!
All sounds good so far.......uh-ha but those that know me understand that my life, lets say never runs smoothly. I have had a long term theory that if my work life is good my personal life is crap and vice versa and the last month or so has proved this well and truly true.
Once I got back from the holiday I had a meeting with my boss and she whinged and I advised that I really wasn't happy there so we agreed parting ways would be best for everyone and I thought that would be it. But no, the job that I truly hated (if you were lucky enough to catch the short lived 'I hate my job' blog then you would understand the full extent of my dislike of that employment if not, use your imagination) any way this job well the boss is haunting me and going out of their way to not let me move on. After one false start with a new company because of the said haunting, I am now sitting on my couch at 1:42 pm on a Wednesday unemployed, jaded and totally lost.
I really really would love to leave the industry that I am in, it has been 5 years and I feel it lacks the challenge and interest that it once had. But where to next??? I have not the most useful university qualifications, 5 years experience in property management, a passion and interest in writing and marketing but no idea how to go about making enough money to pay my bills each month with this. So I am looking for temp work to get me by and alt east bring an income in, if that doesn't start soon then the next option is taking another permanent full time PM position and crossing my fingers that the haunting doesn't continue.
So that is it.......pretty much all updated on the main goings on. On one hand I am so immensely happy and cant believe how lucky I have got and the other is a true example of what a total clusterfuck 2009 has been for me career wise. Oh well, at least I can't say that life isn't interesting!!!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Crossroads
Ok so the last 24 hours can best be described as hellish and I had half expected myself to write a rant and rave blog about heartache and heartbreak, but by about 2pm this afternoon I ran out of tears and since then I have had an eerie calm feeling. I made a decision to walk away with my head held high onto bigger and better things, having now thought about that I have NO IDEA WHAT I WANT!
I am 28, soon to be 29 years old, single, currently in a job that bores the crap out of me by about 11:30am each day and I could do blind folded, I rent a property with my mum (so technically not living with my mum in the traditional 'loaf off your parents' kind of way but still having the uncool points), I still feel like crap most days with the racing heart and lethargy from lack of iron and stupidly in my early 20's decided it was fun to use credit cards so I now spend a fair whack of my disposable income clearing that up, fingers crossed it should all be gone by the time I am 30 but until then I feel 'trapped' in this very uninspiring life. I don't remember what I expected my life to be like, but I am pretty sure that this was not the way I thought it would go, I wanted this very cool happy life and now all that I have are millions of questions as to what comes next......What do I want to do everyday? Where do I want to live? Will I find my soul mate? Will I get to have children? And when will this life start??
I have decided that my new start begins tomorrow. I will put on my game face, fight my best fight, stop hiding behind crappy excuses and not let people treat me like crap and think that it is OK. Now this is not going to be a quick or easy but I think that once I figure 'Me' out the rest will fall into place.....if not there is always liquor to numb the pain xx
I am 28, soon to be 29 years old, single, currently in a job that bores the crap out of me by about 11:30am each day and I could do blind folded, I rent a property with my mum (so technically not living with my mum in the traditional 'loaf off your parents' kind of way but still having the uncool points), I still feel like crap most days with the racing heart and lethargy from lack of iron and stupidly in my early 20's decided it was fun to use credit cards so I now spend a fair whack of my disposable income clearing that up, fingers crossed it should all be gone by the time I am 30 but until then I feel 'trapped' in this very uninspiring life. I don't remember what I expected my life to be like, but I am pretty sure that this was not the way I thought it would go, I wanted this very cool happy life and now all that I have are millions of questions as to what comes next......What do I want to do everyday? Where do I want to live? Will I find my soul mate? Will I get to have children? And when will this life start??
I have decided that my new start begins tomorrow. I will put on my game face, fight my best fight, stop hiding behind crappy excuses and not let people treat me like crap and think that it is OK. Now this is not going to be a quick or easy but I think that once I figure 'Me' out the rest will fall into place.....if not there is always liquor to numb the pain xx
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Sex and The City Wisdom........
So there is this thing that has been happening for a while that has started to freak me out, on Foxtel they play Sex and the City episodes on Saturday and Sundays in blocks and its always worth a watch when there is little else on.
Sporadically I have flicked over for a little 'Sex' action and without exception the episode playing has some kind of message for what is specifically going on in my life. Many would say a show about single women and their lives of course most women would identify, but the bit that freaks me out is that no matter what part of what season it just seems to hit the nail on the head. Now for those without an intimate knowledge of SATC history and or the movie there is a storyline with Carrie and a man called Mr Big that started in the first episode and in some way or another was still going all the way through to the last episode of the last season and then the movie......and throughout the whole thing this is the one relationship that I personally identified with and of course loved the happy ending in the movie because honestly what girl doesn't!
So today's lesson from Season three, was Miranda getting into an argument with Carrie about not going back to Mr Big because she doesn't like the person that Carrie becomes when she is around Big, the quote is 'You become needy and insecure and I don't like it' also followed when they reconcile as friends 'Don't let him kiss you that is where you seem to run into trouble'.....and do you know what its true, its always true.
Every logical person would say yes walk away if someone turns your life upside down, makes you cry and things are never just easy and simple.......and I wish I could, but there is something to be said for a love that can hurt as much as it does fill you with joy, to have a real struggle before things finally work out and for them to drive you crazy one moment and then make you laugh so much it hurts....to have an epic love. Isn't an epic love worth fighting for or is it all really just part of the constructed fairytale that we are fed to believe from a young age and we are all just wasting our time?
At the moment I am standing at a crossroad of an epic love and it has come to the time to make a very big decision, do I believe in the epic love one last time or should I take the other road and just walk away once and for all. For now only time will tell.
Sporadically I have flicked over for a little 'Sex' action and without exception the episode playing has some kind of message for what is specifically going on in my life. Many would say a show about single women and their lives of course most women would identify, but the bit that freaks me out is that no matter what part of what season it just seems to hit the nail on the head. Now for those without an intimate knowledge of SATC history and or the movie there is a storyline with Carrie and a man called Mr Big that started in the first episode and in some way or another was still going all the way through to the last episode of the last season and then the movie......and throughout the whole thing this is the one relationship that I personally identified with and of course loved the happy ending in the movie because honestly what girl doesn't!
So today's lesson from Season three, was Miranda getting into an argument with Carrie about not going back to Mr Big because she doesn't like the person that Carrie becomes when she is around Big, the quote is 'You become needy and insecure and I don't like it' also followed when they reconcile as friends 'Don't let him kiss you that is where you seem to run into trouble'.....and do you know what its true, its always true.
Every logical person would say yes walk away if someone turns your life upside down, makes you cry and things are never just easy and simple.......and I wish I could, but there is something to be said for a love that can hurt as much as it does fill you with joy, to have a real struggle before things finally work out and for them to drive you crazy one moment and then make you laugh so much it hurts....to have an epic love. Isn't an epic love worth fighting for or is it all really just part of the constructed fairytale that we are fed to believe from a young age and we are all just wasting our time?
At the moment I am standing at a crossroad of an epic love and it has come to the time to make a very big decision, do I believe in the epic love one last time or should I take the other road and just walk away once and for all. For now only time will tell.
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