My Poor Neglected Blog.....

It has been a while since my last blog post, trust me along the way I have written plenty inside my head but haven't gotten around to actually getting any up. So the latest goings on in my life.......where to begin!

The last blog left off just before I went away with the ex-bf/ best friend (Mr Big) to Phuket for 3 weeks, well in short the holiday couldn't have gone better. We had an absolute ball, never got annoyed with each other and I can speak for me when I say I fell in love with him all over again. This kind of worked out well as now we are officially together (facebook relationship status and all) and I can't even think what I did without him......yes, I am as they say a smitten kitten!

All sounds good so far.......uh-ha but those that know me understand that my life, lets say never runs smoothly. I have had a long term theory that if my work life is good my personal life is crap and vice versa and the last month or so has proved this well and truly true.

Once I got back from the holiday I had a meeting with my boss and she whinged and I advised that I really wasn't happy there so we agreed parting ways would be best for everyone and I thought that would be it. But no, the job that I truly hated (if you were lucky enough to catch the short lived 'I hate my job' blog then you would understand the full extent of my dislike of that employment if not, use your imagination) any way this job well the boss is haunting me and going out of their way to not let me move on. After one false start with a new company because of the said haunting, I am now sitting on my couch at 1:42 pm on a Wednesday unemployed, jaded and totally lost.

I really really would love to leave the industry that I am in, it has been 5 years and I feel it lacks the challenge and interest that it once had. But where to next??? I have not the most useful university qualifications, 5 years experience in property management, a passion and interest in writing and marketing but no idea how to go about making enough money to pay my bills each month with this. So I am looking for temp work to get me by and alt east bring an income in, if that doesn't start soon then the next option is taking another permanent full time PM position and crossing my fingers that the haunting doesn't continue.

So that is it.......pretty much all updated on the main goings on. On one hand I am so immensely happy and cant believe how lucky I have got and the other is a true example of what a total clusterfuck 2009 has been for me career wise. Oh well, at least I can't say that life isn't interesting!!!

On the Cusp

To say I have had a crazy few weeks is a bit of understatement. The non-extended version is as follows;

Mr Big (ex BF/ Best Friend with occasional benefits) broke up with his girlfriend of three months at his own decision. She went a little stalker-esque for a week or so there so I spent a fair whack of time talking to him, supporting him in what I personally thought was a really great choice! Stemming from this Big was booked on a 3 week overseas holiday to leave on 5th of August, luckily he asked if I wanted to go with him now that there was a vacancy.......and I said yes! So with about a week and a bits notice I told work that I need 3 weeks off work(which they gave me a bit begrudgingly), I then have to get everything ready at work for me to be away for 3 weeks and then start to think about packing!!!!

Now on top of the usual work/ packing stresses, I am FREAKING OUT. Spending 24/ 7 with Big and Big having to put up with me 24/ 7 is alarming me, I get that I am a pretty good person most of the time, but ALL of the time I assume that I am really annoying to be around and I wonder how we are going to deal with that. I mean we have known each other for 16 years and practically have an encyclopedic knowledge on each other (well in all honesty he knows more about me than I do about him) but we have never spent allot of time in a confined space together.

On top of that there is my biggest concern of all. I feel like I am on the cusp of getting exactly what I want (being in a relationship with the boy that I have always loved) and I am shit scared I am going to mess it up. This holiday will be a totally make or break situation for us, worst case scenario we come home best mates which isn't a bad option I know, its the option of everything working out I think that really scares me because I don't think that I ever really thought it would happen. So set in the backdrop of a 5 star hotel in Phuket, Thailand my little story will play out over the next few weeks.

Limited to no Internet access means that I will be mostly cut off from the world and everyone in it. I will have to go a little old school with the writing with a pen and paper and put them up for you all when I get back......whether they be good, bad or even a little bit ugly! So wish me luck to survive the next 2 days of work and cross your fingers and your toes and anything else you can cross to wish me luck on this adventure and to the happy ending that i always wanted. Agggghhh!!!

Hey wait, where did everyone go?????

Ahhh winter......the time for wrapping up in layers, snuggling in with a hot cuppa and a blanket, getting rained on when you do step outside and of course the time when you look around and wonder where the heck all your friends went!

I can tell you exactly where they are.....snuggled up on a couch somewhere with their winter boyfriend/ girlfriend watching a silly romantic comedy and laughing at those silly single people that think about going out on a Saturday night! It occurred to me last weekend when I had no real plans to see anyone or do anything for the WHOLE WEEKEND that my once very buoyant group of fantastic, intelligent, funny single women had completely disappeared and then the further disgrace of having to discuss such weekend with others on Monday. I actually had someone (we shall call him Red because he is Ginger but we love him anyway) feel soooo sorry for me (we shall call me Billy-no-mates) that an SOS was sent out to another friend for a sympathy dinner and drinks to be organised STAT to save me from a death of social suicide!

When I was talking with the said empathiser (Red), he actually listed off all of my lovely girlfriends one by one to which I replied; ' Oh SK (one of my very best friends) she is in a relationship, yeah its going really well and she has a super busy job now so yeah don't get to see her alot at the moment' followed by ' Oh you mean Pol, she moved to Singapore with her new boyfriend a month or so ago so catching up is a little difficult' and so on and on until he stopped and went 'Oh'. I of course brushed it off as a 'slow weekend' and made some joke at my expense but really as winter progresses the weekends have less and less on and more and more my arse and my couch are starting to become firm friends (well my arse is becoming less and less firm as we speak). I have lost everyone to the Winter Relationship....everyone except myself....dammit!

Not that I am totally knocking the lull in proceedings, it is nice to occasionally have a night here and there that is totally your own, you aren't expected to be anywhere and it is totally acceptable to be dressed for the occasion in your comfy flannel PJ bottoms, Ugg boots and a Cardie that only your Nan would wear in public. These are the occasions when you pray that no one drops by unannounced as this attire is solely part of your 'secret single' behaviour that is also only acceptable when sharing the evening with a close girlfriend OR if you are well into a relationship where there is little mystery left OR you look like a Victoria Secret model and you can make the said outfit look good! If you are spending more time enjoying the above with also the mix of dvd's, the occasional take away and alot of alcohol you need to find a decent cover story as telling the truth will only get you the above pity that I got from Red.....make it realistic and detailed enough to avoid deep and probing questions or in worst case scenario, turn the conversation around quick smart!

On the plus side though, one of my beloved girlfriends (Percy) that I had lost to a winter relationship is now back on the singles market with me and I now have a movie date for Friday Night, a possible lunch date on Saturday (if we can pry the couples away from their blissful coupledom) and possibly the proposed sympathy dinner and drinks on Saturday night with Red and my ex boyfriend/ best friend with occasional benefits (lets call him Mr Big; two reasons really one is yes he is really tall compared to me but also yes the similarities that I draw from the Mr Big character from SATC) which will be an absolute ball as they are two of the funniest people that I know plus they are both trained chefs so my softening arse gets to sit on the couch and drink whilst the boys cook up a feast!

So with this weekend looking more attractive than last, things are on the up.......as we move out of winter and into the warmer weather I will also look forward to getting some of my lovely girls back from the grips of the winter hibernation and we again shall drink, laugh and be merry.....oh and take pics and put them of Facebook!